1st of Ash
Gods, the affliction was finally over. It was over! He felt strong, he had gotten a good night's rest, and he had a healthy appetite for breakfast. Healthy enough to push the cook into the pantry and give the old man the blowjob of his life in return for some poached eggs, toast and sausage. Sensing he was in good spirits, the cook had cheekily added some fresh strawberries to the mix. Vivian had, in his normal fashion, inhaled it. He went to care for Bara, combing down the mule, checking his feet and working with him a bit on a lunge line. He had missed feeling normal. He missed feeling like Vivian again. He wasn't sick, he was able to clean himself, and for the first time in the majority of a season he was able to wear his signature eye makeup without feeling like he was going to cry it off an hour later.
He got to enjoy the morning, but the day he dreaded. Emmett was going to come for him. The man was insistent on initiating him into Grave, even though Vivian already had Malformity. Gods, it terrified him. He leaned against Bara, burying his face against the mule's neck to smell his sweet, earthy odor. "I don't want to go through with this..." he whispered softly. The mule leaned into him, and craned his neck over to sympathetically lip at Vivian's hair. "Bara...the first time I barely survived. I still have nightmares about being trapped sometimes....what is this going to do to me?"
Vivian brushed the mule, chewing his lip nervously. He was stalling, he knew he was stalling. Bara looked better than he had all Searing, and the mule was beginning to shiver at his touch, signifying irritation with the large amount of attention.