TIMESTAMP: 1st First Bloom, Glade 4622
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After he’d finished packing some of his own things to leave, the conversation with his Valran about his decision to go to Lorien with Arkash and then retreat to the Badlands went about as well as the Veir had expected it to. Which is to say, she was apoplectic with him. Lucia’s fury slowly waned as Degare bore his heart to her about his emotions of late– how he felt towards Arkash, how the younger man made him feel, how it felt when they were apart, how aimless and without purpose he’d felt over the past decade and so on. His new lover had made him feel, for the first time in forever, truly alive. In the end, he reminded her that he loved her and the entirety of his House dearly, swearing he’d be back, even if he couldn’t give a precise day. The only things he needed from her were to coordinate with the other Veir about running everything while he was away and excusing his absence. That, and if the opportunity ever arose, he requested she find ways to make Raphael’s life just a little bit more interesting.
Once he and Lucia had said their farewells, he and Arkash reunited. Degare had chosen to wear the simplest thing he owned, layered satin robes with a hood worn alongside a cape that draped forward over his shoulders about halfway down his chest, splitting in the middle. Down the back, the cape extends to a few inches above his ankles. Appearearing at first to be an inky black, in direct light, the fine fabric would shift between cool reds, shadowy purples and deep blues. His mask was black, opaque and featureless. Four darkened glass panels adorned the top third of the mask in a single row; each being about two inches apart, two of them were positioned to allow him to see through. On his back he wore a leather bag that he was able to fit a surprising amount of things into– he’d used Weave to compress the air out of anything fabric and painstakingly organized his possessions to take up as little space as possible. Such a feat was useful for he’d needed to shove a fair few layers of clothing in there in order to survive the frigid climate of Nivenhain.
Together, the two of them made their way from his manor once again to Amoren’s adjoining portal to the Hallway. The memories associated with the path they walked weren’t pleasant ones, at least not for the Ferrier. For the last time the pair made this trip, it was only one of them that went through and they'd ended up separated for much longer than either man ever wanted. Much as this association created a rather unpleasant sensation in his stomach, he was able to maintain his composure. This time, they would go through as one.
Stuck together, they’d promised one another.
For most of their walk, the Veir was quiet, lost in his thoughts. The thought of traveling so far from home, truthfully, made him feel nauseous.
Despite the odd mix of emotions within, he allowed himself to enjoy the city around him; it'd be awhile until he'd come back. Amoren in the spring was a rather beautiful sight, kaleidoscopic in colors from the omnipresent hues of gold, red and orange to the bright greens of new plant growth adorned with myriad shades of flowers layered between lovely, marble architecture. Together, he and his lover looked like any other pair of Entente that wandered the streets of the city’s most opulent districts– very few others even glanced in their direction. There was something that relaxed the Veir, something that made him feel safe, about the anonymity his mask and hood provided.
As they neared the building that housed Amoren’s portal, a memory from early that morning crossed Degare’s mind. When he’d expressed to Arkash that he sincerely did want to devote himself to the other, he noticed that the sentiment had made his lover cry. In the moment, he’d chosen to embrace the smaller man in a gesture of reassurance, but it did make him wonder what that had meant. Had he been under the impression that the capability or desire to commit was not something the elf possessed? The irony of assuming such a thing was that it couldn’t have been further from the truth.
In reality, the Veir’s odd navigation of relationships and commitment was a complicated web of apathy, mistrust, a damaged ego, guilt, self doubt, but most of all, fear– lack of interest wasn’t even part of the equation. Part of the reason he forced himself to even request the other’s devotion was that he wanted to get over these things, to allow himself to be happy. After all, that fear is something he’d carried his entire life. The Sil’Norai had buckled to that fear in his last serious relationship and in doing so, he allowed his most important promise to have gone unfulfilled.
Beneath the dark glass of his mask, red-amber irises flit towards the smaller man that walked beside him and he could feel a smile begin to pull at his lips despite everything. The elf just wanted to be happy and Arkash made him so. “It’s such a relief knowing we won’t have to part…there’s nowhere else I’d rather be than by your side.” He spoke with a volume just loud enough for his lover to hear, the soft velvet of his voice woven with his affection.
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After he’d finished packing some of his own things to leave, the conversation with his Valran about his decision to go to Lorien with Arkash and then retreat to the Badlands went about as well as the Veir had expected it to. Which is to say, she was apoplectic with him. Lucia’s fury slowly waned as Degare bore his heart to her about his emotions of late– how he felt towards Arkash, how the younger man made him feel, how it felt when they were apart, how aimless and without purpose he’d felt over the past decade and so on. His new lover had made him feel, for the first time in forever, truly alive. In the end, he reminded her that he loved her and the entirety of his House dearly, swearing he’d be back, even if he couldn’t give a precise day. The only things he needed from her were to coordinate with the other Veir about running everything while he was away and excusing his absence. That, and if the opportunity ever arose, he requested she find ways to make Raphael’s life just a little bit more interesting.
Once he and Lucia had said their farewells, he and Arkash reunited. Degare had chosen to wear the simplest thing he owned, layered satin robes with a hood worn alongside a cape that draped forward over his shoulders about halfway down his chest, splitting in the middle. Down the back, the cape extends to a few inches above his ankles. Appearearing at first to be an inky black, in direct light, the fine fabric would shift between cool reds, shadowy purples and deep blues. His mask was black, opaque and featureless. Four darkened glass panels adorned the top third of the mask in a single row; each being about two inches apart, two of them were positioned to allow him to see through. On his back he wore a leather bag that he was able to fit a surprising amount of things into– he’d used Weave to compress the air out of anything fabric and painstakingly organized his possessions to take up as little space as possible. Such a feat was useful for he’d needed to shove a fair few layers of clothing in there in order to survive the frigid climate of Nivenhain.
Together, the two of them made their way from his manor once again to Amoren’s adjoining portal to the Hallway. The memories associated with the path they walked weren’t pleasant ones, at least not for the Ferrier. For the last time the pair made this trip, it was only one of them that went through and they'd ended up separated for much longer than either man ever wanted. Much as this association created a rather unpleasant sensation in his stomach, he was able to maintain his composure. This time, they would go through as one.
Stuck together, they’d promised one another.
For most of their walk, the Veir was quiet, lost in his thoughts. The thought of traveling so far from home, truthfully, made him feel nauseous.
Despite the odd mix of emotions within, he allowed himself to enjoy the city around him; it'd be awhile until he'd come back. Amoren in the spring was a rather beautiful sight, kaleidoscopic in colors from the omnipresent hues of gold, red and orange to the bright greens of new plant growth adorned with myriad shades of flowers layered between lovely, marble architecture. Together, he and his lover looked like any other pair of Entente that wandered the streets of the city’s most opulent districts– very few others even glanced in their direction. There was something that relaxed the Veir, something that made him feel safe, about the anonymity his mask and hood provided.
As they neared the building that housed Amoren’s portal, a memory from early that morning crossed Degare’s mind. When he’d expressed to Arkash that he sincerely did want to devote himself to the other, he noticed that the sentiment had made his lover cry. In the moment, he’d chosen to embrace the smaller man in a gesture of reassurance, but it did make him wonder what that had meant. Had he been under the impression that the capability or desire to commit was not something the elf possessed? The irony of assuming such a thing was that it couldn’t have been further from the truth.
In reality, the Veir’s odd navigation of relationships and commitment was a complicated web of apathy, mistrust, a damaged ego, guilt, self doubt, but most of all, fear– lack of interest wasn’t even part of the equation. Part of the reason he forced himself to even request the other’s devotion was that he wanted to get over these things, to allow himself to be happy. After all, that fear is something he’d carried his entire life. The Sil’Norai had buckled to that fear in his last serious relationship and in doing so, he allowed his most important promise to have gone unfulfilled.
Beneath the dark glass of his mask, red-amber irises flit towards the smaller man that walked beside him and he could feel a smile begin to pull at his lips despite everything. The elf just wanted to be happy and Arkash made him so. “It’s such a relief knowing we won’t have to part…there’s nowhere else I’d rather be than by your side.” He spoke with a volume just loud enough for his lover to hear, the soft velvet of his voice woven with his affection.
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'Thoughts'
"Common Tongue/Speech"
"Raillen Tongue/Speech"
"Silvain Tongue/Speech"